This blog is all about me, and anything about me. Be prepare to be loaded with lots of food, movies, music, grumbles and even some foul language. This is the place for anyone who knows me, even on the most superficial level. Enjoy and hope you know me better each day. (please adjust your display setting to Unicode)
Fear, My Ally
After attending the ECA fair for 2 days, I decided to sign up for main commitee members for both sides. Which ever wants me, I follow. I will do my best to promote myself, and it is now up to others to choose me. I can say, I have choose both my love and practise.
But, new problem arise.
After having 2 days of lesson proper, I realise how much I had lost in my academic knowledge, with the courtesy of SAF and our 'dear' government. I had became a total idiot in my study.
I feel terrible. Fears strikes immediately.
But as Darth Maul said, Fear, Fear is my Ally. .
The Fear of failing just push me to work harder. The moment I settled my PC stuff at home, I get hold of sai lou to ask him for guidiance. What face is there to talk about when your school life is at risk. Even though the situation went a little out of hand, and unfocus, as we always have this weird way of communication, ending up hitting each other, calling names along the way... (and lou ma zi flaunting her new jewellry, something she had not done in a long, long while...) but all in the names of passing all my subject this semester.
Fear, it is my ally, too.
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/30/2004 10:40:00 pm
For Love or Practise
I attended the F.I.R. concert I queued for. Have to queue up again before seeing the performance actual. Fortunately, it was of no disapppointment. My type of high.
Unknown to me before that, Cultural Activity Club, organiser of the concert, had given out tickets to heads of other ECA clubs. One of OG leader, vice-president of Visual Art Society, got 4 ticket. She, together with another senior, prompt me to join the group, and take up her role in the society. This post will also be the president of AnimeWorks in NTU,too.
Frankly speaking, I am very tempted. My post in VAS will give me higher ECA points for staying in hostel.
But the other side of me tell me to go to Japanese Appreciation Club, as they have replied and invivited me to their Welcome Tea-cum-General Meeting. That was my first choice, a place I think I could fully utilise my love for Japanese culture. However, even I joined the main position, I receive less points in total than VAS as position holder.
Of course, having main position holder in both club will be too much to handle for me. Hence, I need to make a choice.
A real hard one. So, for love, or practise? I have only so little time to decide.
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/28/2004 02:22:00 pm
2 of 2: Live Strong
My room mate (thankz) gave me this yellow wristband today. Live Strong, is what is inscripted on it.
This is the mantra of Lance Armstrong, a famous US cyclist, and also a cancer survior. He was diagnosed in 1996, but won Tour de France in 1999. During his treatment, he started the Lance Armstrong Foundation, reaching to out to the world with help and informations, helping cancer patients to, live strong.
The band was produced by Nike. Rare find from such big money chucking company.
Comments aside, but this is what cancer patients, or cancer surviors should be doing, and what others should help them towards. A lot of people, and even the therapists themselves think, that cancer patients have no hope. That is not true. The medical technology areimproving each day, helping cancer patients to continue their lives. lou ma zi is just one of them. She had gone through sufferings many of us will never in our lives exprienced, and she is still standing tall today to live a normal life. She know the words better than any of us. With the physical and mental support from obasan and gu ze, and all her close friends like Auntie Jocelyn, Mrs Ho, Aunt Zen-jie, etc, lou ma zi have gain every hope to live on and see my brother and I through our life.
Ma, you might never read this (as I never tell you to). But, live strong, and we are always behind you.
(For those interested, check the site for more info: www.wearyellow.com)
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/26/2004 07:54:00 pm
1 0f 2: kowaii...
(jap: scray)
First day of school as an university student, something I have waited for 3 whole years.
But, damn, am I given the fright of my life today...
In order of degree of petrified:
1. Once again, even after all the recce done, I am still very much lost in campus. I travelled one big round just to find my school office. That would not be possible if not because of my room mate...
2. When finding my way around, I met one of the guys from another company in camp. You know, in camp, we often know each other only by face, especially ture for my batch, of people from other company. My room mate knew that guy, and you know what, he is in the same faculty and have the same time table as me!?
3. At the freshmen orientation company, there was this dance item on the intenery. To my uptmost surprise, it was performed by the foreign student bodies in campus. They were namely the Mainlanders, Vietnamese, Indonesian (who had this bowl-in-hand-but-won't-fell-off-no-matter-what-they-do dance) and Indians. Then, comes the bigger surprise. Individual foreign representatives went on stage to perform a song item. There were twenty plus on stage, and one of them were my senior's girlfriend, a Thai!? I know NTU is moving to be an international insitiute, but never do I expect the amount could go this high...
4. And yes, I queued up for the F.I.R. concert ticket. How scary? 2 and a half hour (when I saw and join the queue) before the distribution start, and the queue had already extended to 1/10 of the North Spine. How long is that, please check the map from www.ntu.edu.sg Never epxpect this could be such a big event
5. Admidst queueing, I saw one person I would never thought of seeing at NTU in my life: the girl whom I had put in so much, my first real crush. The last time I heard from her, she was working. Now, she is studying in bio-science. sai lou said this is fate. But in truth, I don't wanna see her in my life again, especially my love life. I have wasted too much on her.
What a way to start my university life (^_^!!!
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/26/2004 07:35:00 pm
kagayaku
(jap: shine)
I went for my OG's BBQ at East Coast yesterday. Everyone in the group were there, including the local cutey, who was the organiser.
The group cycled, and she remained rather quiet among the group. I was busy fooling around with the funny group leader if I ever stopped cycling. I was noticing her only because we were playing jokes on her.
But, when one of the senior came in the evening, she changed 100%. She shine.
Simple, she is interested in that guy, and I never find it unexpected. She said something about that during one of the mess dance practice. He is younger than me, but much more mature than me.
Am I blind or really that the girls around me have naught interest in me? There is lot for me to polish on to get girls notice me... and I don't mean to act more outreageously. I just have to work more on my substance.
p.s. i know this might seemed desperate, but this is the group of people i hang around nowadays...
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/23/2004 06:01:00 pm
Live On
I just caught a movie after my Qualifying English Test, with my comrade, after he said on his blog he wanted to watch it too. Maybe it is the association with the wind that the show caught my attention.
Like any other Korean movies, Windstruck or Introducing My Girlfriend (http://www.yeochinso.com/) in Korean originally, plays with the audience emotion. They have real exaggerating romance sequence, like carrying a tiny, cocktail umbrella in the rain, only to shiver in front of the fire place at night; they also have this tear-jerking scenes when the couple had and accident, and the guy almost died after knocking his head onto the steering, and drowned in the river.
It is not you usual Hollywood comedy anyway, and so the guy died afterall. Hence, the the female lead upheld the rest of the movie. Jun Ji Hyun is the greatest Korean actress I have seen so far, she became the plillar the moment Jung Hyuk's character died.
The girl tried all means to die with him: tried to shoot herself, the college stopped her (yah, the girl is a policewoman); she tried poison, but the doctors saved her; she tried jumping off building, but a big balloon saved her; she moved department, faced criminal over-reacting like robocop... but she survive all of them.
When she was finally put on the verge of death, she finally realise something. She have to live on, to at least see the guy before he leave the mortal world.
If only I can feel you... Even as the wind
The fact is, her destiny will come after that. Her first love, just as he said, will be the wind around her, Introducing his (My) Girlfriend to the guy of her life.
A wonderful preqeul to the My Sassy Girl.
Believe it or not, this might just things works in life. Fate has everything paved out. It is different from just sitting there wait for things to happen. Fate has its way of making things out for each of us.
Live on, and your fated one comes to you eventually, the wind says...
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/21/2004 06:32:00 pm
soshite...
Just finished my matriculation for my course, that is like after more than half day of sitting next to my PC, and frantically calling the services centre. Along the way, I went out to have lunch and a hair cut. I also helped that local cutey on how to matriculate online, as she met up with the exact problem I had. Not to mention that the ever changing sites confused both of us, casuing me to miss out an important steps for both sides.
Sad to say, the efficiency of any local bodies are really very low. They told us to matriculate from today onwards, but the system did not start until 0900. The full, user-friendly version only came out in the afternoon.
That aside.
Finally, I am living the way a normal young adult should do, studying and not serving the army. I begins to see more conversation with those girls of my same JC batch, and not like last time, only us telling how NS is like. This is a gigantic improvment, at least we share the same channel now, despite I have girls 3 years my junior being my senior in school...
soshite (hence), my new life begins...
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/20/2004 07:15:00 pm
3 0f 3: F.I.R. + Girl = Campus Life?
I will be queuing up with my comrade/room mate for a concert at Nangyang Auditorium. The performers is the band that is crited as Taiwanese's Do As Infinity (D.A.I.), Fairyland In Reality (F.I.R.) Both of us listen to the songs, hence, no harm skipping a stilly intro lecture for that.
However, I find out one big thing about campus girls. If they ever look a little cuter, or know how to dress up a little, be prepare to see them dancing in clubs. I confrimed that after the bash last night. And all shoud know how much I hate those evironment, all thanks to my classical background. So if not because of the Suzhou girl, my bash will be another piece of shit in my camp.
So it is really hard to find my perfect girl in campus. I just have to endure the lousy mix in order to find any girl at all.
And this is how my campus life start...? (I'm trying to imitate Oda Nobunaga's way of talking in sengoku musou)
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/17/2004 10:30:00 pm
2 0f 3: praise thee, bonito
bonito is such a wonderfull cooking partner.
I bought this big piece of bonito, from Japan. It is unshaved, and hence, I have to use a knife to chip it on my own. However, it is the best I have seen. It is pinkish in colour the moment you cut, or rather saw open...
lou ma zi used some to cook radish for tonight's dinner. Other ingredient includes konbu seaweed, dried scallop and a pinch of salt.
The result, the best white radish I have ever eaten. There is no way you can use words to descirbe it.
Want to try? Can... come my hostel room loh...
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/17/2004 10:11:00 pm
1 0f 3: O-Camp
Just came back from my FOC, feeling real tired and sick. All my sinus problem had its full effect on me now.
I spent my time basically looking stupid, having fun and being what I should be there: lame. I was picked to dress up as cute little girl the frist day, and I used every single pose I saw on Taiwanese variety show to act very digustingly cute. (^_^!!! However I won that silly contest, and was called man of the group for the next few days, by doing some more stupid things, and intelligent thing. How intellegent? Answer this: What is so fragile that it breaks the moement you call its name? I got it in 30 sec.
I met two girls in my group that left an deep impression on me.
First, a Suzhou girl. Like all Suzhou girls, she is consider a mark above the better haf of the girls in Singapore. And the best part, she share the same hobby of collecting figurines.
Second, a typical local cutey, complete with big, doe eyes and dyed hair, less the good skin. She have the quality I'm interested in. She even won the camp peagent. And I think I over-show my liking for her, and she started to avoid me at the end of camp.
However, the local gal enjoy dancing at the bash. As all would know, I hate loud bass pumping, hence, I brought the Suzhou girl, similarly irritated, to take a stroll at Clark Quay, showing her the toy shop there. I just hope they could just merge to become my perfect girl.
Hence, all I can say, the starting of school life again, as my comrade said, is reviving. I see glimpse of the better self in me.
But, still think I am a big loser about liking of girls and how to show it properly.
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/17/2004 09:51:00 pm
The Weakest Link
I am the weakest link.
I am an under-achiever, never making any thing big in whatever I learnt. Whatever I had used or buy in the process, end up in the junk yard. My study is never up to any bar, even my bother can do better than me.
I have low regard in the family, as I can't even take acare of myself, even in the tiniest term. Everybody went thru troubl in my family, and I was the only one that was pampered during that period, 'cos they thinkI cannot handle it.
My judgement is unworthy, never deemed as the correct advice, if not causing more trouble. Even this computer was faulty because I did not check properly.
I cannot control my emotion. I'm crying right now writing this.
Am I only purpose only to be mock of, doing the wrong thing, or just to be the company or ornament in the life of others. I even have nightmare of being left behind once in a while.
Am I really so pathatic, that I am telling the world how much a loser I am, all because I can't keep my room in the right condition for the cleaner to do her job properly? I need lou ma zi to give me a good lecture in order start to think.
Call me loser, please............................
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/09/2004 01:16:00 am
Settled...?
After being replemended by the very concerned gu ze(thankz very much), all while my parents were dicussing their finacial status with our insurance agent, the school fees seems to be settled. All I have to do now, is to hand in the bank loan, and prepare the monthly deduction form for my bank account.
But, as to how it really works, I will just have to wait for the loan to be approved. There are also a few points I need to clear it out later at the bank, which is a stone throw away at Sun Plaza (something like Lok Yeun at Tseun Wan, mall near train station)
So, do you call this settled?
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/08/2004 08:31:00 am
Old, Old Friends
I was forced to go out, because of the short cut of power supply. Hence, I went out to town to buy some more(yes... more... obasan, please keep it covered)toys from town. But it was more because I was helping lou dao to get his medicine the clinic shortchanged him.
It should be a normal day, until I meet a primary shcool friend. He helped out in the small cafe at the shopping mall, I talked to him outside, exchanged phone numbers and went into the cafe to sit down, and talk some more.
The group I hanged out back then had a little gathering here and there, and some had changed, while some not. He will informed me of any next meet-up.
There was this bronze haired(not dyed, natural), Chinese girl in class, who was real short back then. Today, she is as tall as any other guy I know. And do tall goes with slender, right?
One more expectation for the next gathering.
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/07/2004 05:59:00 pm
$$$
Trust me, the problem of the real world start to emerge the moment I left camp: School Fee.
My family had a little problem forking out the sum at the moment. It is not as if we do not have the money, it is rather which method shall we use.
Use CPF? It is even more troublesome than loan from bank. They are still cracking their head on what to do now.
And just to remind myself, I have to prepare some money for orientation camps, too. Just two, the faculty's and the hall's. lou ma zi she will pay for it, but I can't do anything, as it had to be paid by cheque, something I don't have.
More worries, more reason to work hard.
// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 7/06/2004 09:57:00 pm