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Lost Interest
The longer I still among the GIP people, and not because I am in Beijing, the more I have lost interest in some of the things I had so much zeal on.

I have begun to run out of the enthusim to organise other's birthday party, even if it's his or hers 21st birthday. I start to think of my misfortune during my 21st birthday not a drive to make others enjoy their birthday, but I would think of that as an excuse to be heartless towards such things.

Or is it really what I think of?

Could it be that fact that I am really not interested in maintaining a good term with some of these people, whom sometimes just get on my nerve, becoming the very reason that I am losing more temper than anything since NS?

Could it be more simply that I am crazed by the presence of a beautiful stranger whom I intend to know her better each day, going to see the scenary of Fall with her, at the expense of someone's 21st birthday?

Deep in me, I still feel 21st birthday, or the birthday that mark one's adulthood as important. After that, it seems that growing up is no more an event to look forward to. Hence, there's a need to mark this point with celebration, rather than anythings else.

And in Beijing,there are only 14 of us. There is no reason that we should be isolating any of ourselves from the rest. There are 14 different type of person here, and sure enough I need to, and have some point, learnt from these people. Losing temper is not pretty, and nonetheless is it idiotic.

And as I review my own so-called love life, I have a tendency to fall in love, but not able to do, or comit myself to make it more than love-at-1st-sight. I have this tendency to be addicted to this feeling. Is it due to all my past undergoing? I really don't know.

But which ever the fact is, I simply not interested to do the right thing. I just wanna be a little astray, be away from the rest, and have a personal life.

But this, in fact, I am feeling lesser and lesser interest in it day by day. I don't know is it that I am living a life that is only this close to my hated NS life again.

Some interest I must find in life before the nonchalants kills me...

// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 10/23/2006 10:37:00 pm


Cut Off?
Being away from your family when being in China is not the worst thing for me now. Being cut off from the rest of the world in terms of material and culture needs, that's a pain.

Be it entertainment, shopping needs, and even basic necessity, Beijing seems to be so far away from the outside world.

This is so much different from Shanghai. All the brands you can name are availible there (even Coffee Bean & Tea Leaves); international artist perform in concert hall every other days, just the past 3 month alone, there are at least 5 concerts I would like to, but can't attend, simply I am at the wrong place, at the wrong time.

But come to think of it, is Shanghai so much better than Beijing? I believe, if I were to be in Shanghai now, I will need 3 times more allowance in order to survive. A city of tempatation it is, and I am no saint either.

Cut Off? Yes, but at least I am being cut off from a lot of sins.

// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 10/16/2006 11:29:00 pm


Minority Invasion
Hundreds of years ago, Mongolian ate up the majority of Eurasia continent, over taking the central kingdom.

Today, it's torn into two by what 2 of the biggest power and idealogy of today, Inner an Outer Mongolia is what it is known as now.

A lots of external pressure, especially from the West, is having a popaganda on Inner Mongolia to to totally separated from China. But from the major brands of dairy products you see around China today, and the scale of advertising in major Mongolian cities and village alike, it is gonna be a hard nut to crack.

However, even though Mongolia is being developed later than other major city in mainland, it's pace is rival that of Shandong in some aspect, and its tourisim industry is a definate factor.

To the people themselves, it is not a bad thing either. They are given pirioties and subsidies on studies, oppurtunites, etc. Like our tour guide, with the development of tourism, he started his part-time line since high school. Not only have it provided him a means of revenue, it allow him to get exposed to the outside world faster than any of us. Though younger than most of us, his maturity is no less than any of us guys who had done their NS.

And I believe, a new generation of invasion have only just begun. The golden horde will rides the econoimcal grassland this time, invading China once more.

// sprinkled by wing_0 @ 10/04/2006 11:02:00 am